Monday's story...

huff... i started my day by preparing to go to the library...
then... after i arrived there, I've just realize that today is the day where the Chinese go to the cemetery n clean their relatives grave... Damn~~
i don't know.... how can they make that that to be holiday... they even didn't have any holiday for Chris mas... what the hell???

all right... let's just go to the point...
i then went to one of the engineering building n search for a small classroom that is unlocked, so that i can silently study my Analytical Chemistry n my Calculus...
but then... since it's the day where the winter flow came... so,~~~ i fell a sleep.. ha ha.... I've just read a few sheet of my Chemistry n i fell a sleep...
when i woke up it's time for lunch.. n the point is, i didn't study until i have my dinner... ha ha... so hopeless...

Haiz... but.. an interesting happen ... when i was in the classroom, i just realized that i have Little narc ism thing in myself.. ha ha...
i take a few photos using my phone.. Wakk... since it's a lazy whether..

should i be jealous...??

oh... i think i can't even have the choice to ask like that...
cause... i don't have the chance to choose i cannot to be jealous...
i just can't control what i feel...

wish she could be more sensitive just a little bit...
or should i just say to her directly??? but i'm no one to her...

i'm facing my exam tomorrow... i've try my best...

hah....
hi there....
i'm back....

wew... it seems that i really can't manage my own time...
poor me... i've always planned everything one night before of what i'm gonna do today... but always failed... =.="

well then.. just like today... i planned to study n i end up bloging, fb-ing, chatting n bla2....

n maybe tonight i'll out for soccer again.. waw.. haha

i hate they stop the sport class today.. damn
we suppose to play badminton... why should this happen to badminton...
it's my favourite sport... =.="

well then... since i've started my online-ing then i should continue... wahahaha....

then.. i'll just share my lab experiment yesterday...
it's quite cool ya know... haha
the first one is just kind of quick boring demonstration from my professor... so we didn't actually did sth... it called PCR (Polymerase Chain Reaction)

then the second one is cooler.. haha...
it's called agarose gel electrophoresis it's called Agarose, coz the gel is from the mixture from the agarose... haha... cool heh....
well then... i've got some picture of it...



it's the first tool to make the gel from the mixture of agarose n TAE (Tris-HCL Acetate EDTA) buffer... we then pour it into the medium that has black n white strip..




it's the apparatus to run the DNA through the gel... it worked by pulling the DNA mixture down through the gel... the apparatus worked with electromotive force...
by using the flow of the some kind of electricity from the negative charge(anode) to positive charge(cathode)...



well this is the gel... just like "agar agar" i really want to eat it... haha



and this is the gel that has been added the marker n the DNA solution... that has been rundown by the apparatus.. can be seen, the solution (blue) is most likely in the in the bottom.. this gel then will be put above the UV light so see the size of the DNA compare to the marker...




and this is the gel above the UV light... the size not really clear.. since it is blur... haha... poor you!!!

well then... it's really cool for me.. haha


bye2

i've arrived Taiwan last midnight... it's really tiring...
after i arrived i still had to arrange my stuff.. owh come on... really can't bare it..
um... can u believe it... i cried in the airplane when i watched astro boy...
such a weird thing, isn't it?? but i didn't cry because of the story...

huff... i really miss her badly... i just can't take that memory of what happened that day out of my mind.. it's just killing me... i want to fight... but i think i'm not really that ready... i just can pray... and surrender all to Him...

today... i make the biggest fake smile face in my 18 year life time...
what an amazing actor i am there... pretending there is nothing happen.. and pretending that my heart is always that good... that actually i can't even put how hurt it is in to words...

i don't know how to act... it's just silly, in these several years, i keep on smiling in front of everyone... let every people see my fake smiling face..
they don't even trust that i'm not in the mood, when i told them...
i don't know is that really that i wan't...

i just don't know... what i know in less than 3 days time, i'll back to my track, building my future... n consider to fight harder than i should... i dunno whether i need to fight for my "so called" love until that far...
i just too afraid to get hurt... but i know that's what a man should do... i need to learn everything...

so i think i'll try to fight this battle...

okay... my days are miserable...
thanks to Ribka... she's just so understand me...

i think it's time for me to do some tansformation...
i'll try to grab my future...
yup... it's gonna be a hard 3 n a half year... a really hard year...
i just can pray to Him.. wish he could help me...
n i know He will always be with me...

er...
okay... this time... it's not some kind like Chinese New Year to me...
since i've always got red pocket..

okay... this year won't happen... i won't get... any...
and i keep on hearing everyone shouting the excitement of getting theirs...
kind of sad, but... it's life.. cheer up boy...

anyway.... Happy Chinese New Year... and Valentine's day...
it's a hard day this morning...
but it's big day tonight... i dunno how to tell the person...
i'll just do n say what i have too.. if it goes wrong then... let's just wait how His plan is made for my life.. i Believe in Him..